100's of memories and emotions swirl around me ... the world is tilted and I cannot do anything about except wish and pray.

I had simple plans for today. But God allowed them to be disrupted ... beyond repair ... by people.

A friend arrived. He hoped for a rescue ... all I could offer were just a few keywords for Google. Far less than he hoped.

Another friend arrived. He hoped for understanding and compassion. I understood but not in the way he had hoped. He challenged me to prove his thinking wrong. I do what I do. I pointed him to a book. I do not think he will see the value.

Another friend arrived. She hoped for ... an alliance of sorts ... she did receive one ... different than she had hoped ... not as much as she had hoped. But I think she still thought it of value.

My husband arrived. He was in need of comfort ... A friend, a counsel is gone from this planet. I gave what comfort I could in words. But my comfort will not be enough to completely take away the pain.

I sit and look at my monitor ... all the words I have typed into this thing today ... they are inadequate.

And there are no actions I can take, either. All my friends have to take their own actions.

I am glad God has more patience and hope and better words and deeper comfort to provide ... far beyond me.

I am also exceedingly glad that God sent me more friends at the end of the day to help me laugh again ... from all different sorts of directions ... and all their words arrived to me through this monitor.

AND Thanks for the Happy Birthday wishes! Each one makes me smile every time I open that post.